09 // -> Changes are coming!
I once told myself that I’d never go where a hurricane could reach my path, well I’m about to move myself and my mom down to Texas. I hope to start a new life down there and leave everything up here and just start over. I’m not worried about the costs of starting over, not like I’m leaving much behind now, the furniture we have now was giving to us by our current dead beat landlord. So eh, there’s always good will and stuff to find odds and ends, and maybe a couch for a little while.. but I’ll make do with what we have available. As far as work I’m transferring with my work down to the same company. Rent is like half of what i pay now but sales tax is a little higher what it is here no big deal. I’m always getting a raise in two weeks and that’s good, good timing right before i move. What’s mega awesome is I’ll be super close to my bestest Courtney 
so that’s super exciting!
Indiana has been okay to me for the past 7 years that i lived here off and on. I left the state for a brief time 2 years ago, went home to Pa and i just couldn’t take it, i went home to be closer to my dad but when i got there i realized i just couldn’t handle it everything reminded me of him. I knew then i had to leave i was going to push myself insane and i just didn’t want that so i left and went to Iowa to be with a dumb girl but that didn’t work so i came back to the only thing that i knew, my job and my friends here. I’m ready to move on with my life and move somewhere where nobody knows me and nobody cares. The only thing I’m worried about is hurricanes.. i have so many questions, if i rent and something happens to the place, does the landlord have to put me up? or what happens? i know all about renters insurance, but that only covers my belongings. has anybody been in this position and can help me out?
I’ve been working a shit ton of hours lately, Easter is coming up and we’re the ”showcase” store for all the big shots to come and look at and all that, I’m ready for it all to be over, I’m ready for my transfer to be in place already, so tired of the ”big shots” cant wait to be at my new store where i won’t have to worry about it.
Also, shout out to my host @deanfx for being awesome and always being there when i need him the most. He sent me an iPhone last month and he’s helped me mod it to my specifications, always showing me new shit and it’s mega cool never thought I’d get into this kinda stuff, but it’s awesome! 
anyways I’m done going on and on, time to hop into bed and get some sleep for work tomorrow! !
Also, i started a project 365, that i’m going to use my iphone camera to take my pictures, i’ll update it daily and hope to have a good year with it, you can follow along at Project 365
Goodnight and thanks for reading!
08 // -> I knew this place wouldnt be..
i know, you’re probably wondering where I’ve been hiding, well… the honest truth is.. work I’ve been working some crazy hours lately and now that the holidays are coming to a close i feel like i can breathe a little bit. Life is still hectic but not as crazy as the holiday times were.
For almost two years since i came back to Indiana, i knew this place wouldn’t be permanent but in fact just a temporary place to get back on my feet and place to lay my head at night. For two years I’ve been looking at where to go next from here, first i was gonna move home but then i knew it didn’t work out the first time.. then i was gonna go to Florida to go be with my best friend.. but then she moved Biloxi – Mississippi then she moved to Texas. Why so many moves for her? well simply because her husband is in the military and the military doesn’t like to let them stay in one place very well long. As tempting as it is to move to Texas, because lets face it, they have warm weather down there, and I’d freaking love the warm.. well i don’t like the idea of the military up and moving them, then I’d be down there for nothing. Well this started to gather in my head, i started to do my research on a couple different places, i weighed out the cons and pros of every place i had picked out, i looked at everything from cost of living, to job fields to weather to as simple as public transportation. I looked all over, places where i thought i’d be happy I ended up deciding on 1 place, I’ve been doing my research on this state/city and i like what i read. i don’t want to give it away just yet, but it’s somewhere where.. nobody would think to think of looking for me, probably going to shock everybody. My deciding factor on this place? my work is there and i can transfer and not loose my rank, it’s pretty nice. I have about a month and 7 days left until I’ll be on my way out of the door here and on my way to my new home. So for the next two months or so, time will be squeezed and I’ll be running around chasing my tail between my legs, haha.. anyway I’m sorry i disappeared i just wanted to let y’all know I’m okay and doing well.. things at work are finally good and things at home are good also. How was your ”holidays” tell me about it in the comments Mine was great, thanksgiving was good, and Christmas was excellent i got everything i wanted! i got a tablet, a brand new laptop some clothes a brand new HD LCD TV, that I’m like beyond in love with, haha Tell me in the comments what y’all got :-]
When i get to my final destination I’ll reveal where it is I’ll be located, but y’all can take some guesses. well.. i’m off to relax and get some rest, thanks for reading!
Also i got a hostee, Alania .. but she doesnt have anything up yet, i’ll let yall know when to go give her some love! :-]
07 // -> Recently i started to get my feelings..
I wish i had someone to understand me, someone that i could reply on with my thoughts, it’s so hard to just talk to anybody, so here i am, writing in my blog, yet again.. Love, it’s a funny thing, it’s a good feeling to be loved, and also a feeling that no other feeling can touch. When you’re someone like me it’s hard to open up and reach out and express your feelings, it’s a very difficult thing when you’ve been badly burned in the past.. I’m closed up and i hardly talk about my past. I don’t ever want to feel the hurt i experienced ever again, matter of a fact i wouldn’t wish it on my worst night mare. I try so hard just to keep to myself and not let anything get to me, but sometimes it’s just so bottled up.. i just want to explode. It’s not a good thing nor is it a good feeling to just have stuff bottle up and until i get to the point of breaking. Today is one of those days i just want to explode. Sometimes i feel like life would be easier without me on this thing we like to call planet earth, like sometimes i wish i wasn’t born and i didn’t have to go through the things i went through. Sometimes i look at my life and say ”what is my life” what am i doing exactly with my life? Sometimes i just have no idea. Recently i started to take a look at my life and say i need to do something different with my life, I’m sick of my job, I’m sick of everything i just need CHANGE. whatever that change my be..
Recently i started to get my feelings in a position i probably shouldn’t have put them, MY fault. No big deal it can be corrected but truth is, i really don’t want to correct it, i want to fight it and see what happens i just have to keep telling myself, Patience Justin.. Daddy always told me, patience is a virtue.. Well hello, here i am, 27 years old and just figuring this out? wait what? i don’t know i just really to stop being the same old person and change how i do things, I’m tired of bottling things up, maybe counseling is the answer? I’ve still yet to go get over my dads death, it’s causing a lot of emotions in my life.. I’m always sad and always constantly thinking about it. I cant do much about it, because i don’t have ”heath insurance” just yet but in November i will. In the mean time a new gym is opening up and i hope i can go there everyday after work and hit it hard and take out my frustrations. Sometimes i just wish i could disappear for a day and see what happens? ever felt that way?
Well it’s getting late and i have to be in to work at 4 am, so I’m done venting now.. I’ll head to bed. goodnight :-]
Question of the day: Have you ever just wanted to run away and see what happens/ see who cares enough to notice?
06 // -> just a little update
Sorry i haven’t updated in a little bit, life has been hectic, i just recently got promoted at work and I’ve been working, eating – sleeping.. but today i got a new laptop and decided I’d do a little update.. i really want my next update to be a Q/A post, so leave me some questions you guys have and I’ll answer them all in the next update. :-]
We just got a gym in our town, finally.. it opens in two weeks.. I’m so excited to finally have a place to go to before/after work to get my frustrations out haha :-] I’m going to hit the gym hard! cant wait.
this is it for now, i’ll update again when i can or get some questions! :-]
05 // -> it’s been a bit since..
First off.. I’d just like to just to give a big shout out to IPeedALittle most of my traffic has been from that site lately So Thanks! (:
Anyways it’s been a bit since I’ve written an update in here, so i decided I’d write something to update this. I’ve been a little sick in tired of my job lately, i hate everybody i work with, i hate everything about that place i always feel like i have to drag myself into the doors and i always ask myself ”is it over yet” Well I’ve been on the job hunt for a little bit, i hope i find something i like and i hope it comes soon i don’t know how much more i can take of that place. Things didn’t go well with the whole planning a move, things fell through and that got me bummed a little bit. I came home from work tonight to find out good news my mom got a job offer somewhere far away from here, about 1800 miles to be exact. I told my mom to take the job and I’d quit my current job and when we got there, I’d find something, i hope and pray this is what happens. I’ve decided in two years when my mom gets full benefits from my dad passing away i can go from working full time to go down to part time and better my life and go to school to pursue something, I’m not sure what yet though. I just know i need to do something with my life and I’m not getting any younger, I’m just getting older and time is passing. make sense? it makes sense in my head.. i hope this doesn’t sound a little bit crazy to you all.
Anyways i don’t know if i mentioned this yet but i gotta kitty about 2 weeks ago and i named him Skylar! I’ll post some pictures in the next update and show you all him! This week is the fair week and I’m planning to go tomorrow [7/24/12] it’s suppose to rain.. so we’ll see what happens. I’ve been feeling a little bit lost without my camera lately so hopefully i can go to the fair and take some pictures! I’m done for tonight! goodnight guys & girls.
I’ve been looking for some affiliates/ blog roll partners?! any takers?! Â [email me your link and a link button to leetjustin@gmail.com ] Also, i decided in every update, I’d ask a question at the bottom of every update and see what kinda response it gets. so here’s the first question.
Have you ever looked at your life and realized you needed a change? such as work, school, anything? 
04 // -> A Fresh Start
I know i suck at updating my own site, but I’ve been busy planning a move and working and having a social live. I’ve lived in Indiana for six years, six years too long it’s time for a change. In a couple of weeks I’ll be moving to a new state, a new city somewhere where nobody knows me and nobody actually gives a damn. I’m pretty nervous to move somewhere completely new, but excited to have a fresh start i know it’ll be good for me. I’ll be moving close to a good friend of mine, which excites me because we’ve been friends for a long time and it’ll be nice to actually be able to spend time with them. Not all the details are worked out yet but i hope they get finalized soon. I’m ready to go like tomorrow but i must wait it out till end of July. Things are going good finally! For a while i felt like i was just in a ”slump”. I’m still sad i had to get rid of my doggy but he’s better off where he’s at. I have a new work schedule, i like it! I go in at 4 am! it’s early but at least i get out early and i get the rest of the day to myself! I’m pretty excited to move, and get out of here, and have a new life. People here are shady as heck especially at my work so I’m glad I’m getting out of here. I hope the move goes smooth and I settle in quick. I’m going to Chicago on Saturday one last time before i move I’m pretty excited about that! Just to get away and spend some time doing whatever and being a tourist!
August 22nd I’m going to see Linkin Park in concert in Cincinnati Ohio, it’ll be my very first concert, I’m stoked about it, i hear they’re good live, so i hope it goes well! well i hope everyone has a good fourth of July doing whatever they’re doing, I’m not doing anything, fireworks got canceled so I’m just staying home having a relaxing kind of night. i don’t mind nights like these, it’s not often i get to relax so I’ll take anytime i can get! Well thanks for reading!
03 // -> Happy Fathers day
Tomorrow is Fathers day, and even though my dad isn’t alive to celebrate it, I’ll still celebrate it in honor of him. My dad may not have been the best dad in the world he still was my Hero. It’s been 15 years since he passed away, and some days i still feel like it happened yesterday. People say it gets easier as time goes on, i say it’s the other way around. People have their way of grieving, well my way of grieving is still having is memory around. I wish i could go to his grave tomorrow and talk to him, but i cant since i live about 800 miles from where he is buried. It’s been a long hard life lesson not having my father around, especially since he died when i was young. I was 12 years old. I don’t care what anyone says, not having a father figure growing up is the hardest thing to ever go through. I wasn’t the easier kid to raise afterwards. Sure i may have crossed a few boundaries, but i always looked up to the sky and asked my dad to point me down the right path to take. Sometimes i always feel like i veer off course and i always ask for direction. People always say follow your heart, i say follow your gut instinct because your heart can lead you down the wrong course.
I love you dad! With that said, this post is to wish you happy fathers day Dad, i miss your terribly! I wish i had pictures of you, but unfortunately i don’t and since grandma is up there with you i hope you and grandma are celebrating it together. I’ll celebrate it by lighting a cake and blowing out the candles and wish you happy fathers day.
with Love always,
your son Justin. :-]
02 // – > I use to think my old manager…
I use to think my old manager was the devil, i once hated him.. but then he saved me big time last year and then ever since then we’ve been pals. Well he got sent away to another location and then in comes the new guy, he is now the devil. I mean it i can never do any good in this guys eyes he’s always on me trying to see just how far he can push me before i explode. Well i got news for him my old manager Gary has been on the phone trying to calm things down. Tonight my new manager came up to me and says ”oh by the way i talked to Gary today? .. okay and Mr manager your point is? i seriously hate this guy.. like he could fall off a bridge.. or a cliff .. or just fall off the face of the earth. I’m really trying to be nice about this whole entire thing, but one day this guy is gonna push one of my wrong buttons and he’s gonna see the crazy in me. In the mean time I’m trying to calm my jets and be nice because some wise person said ”kill them with kindness” well i don’t think this wise person knows just how bad it’s the opposite with this guy. Anyways Come August i’ll be going where my old manager is and leaving this shit hole for good. I really cant wait!
Anyways Things at home are kinda okay, my landlord, or should i call him Mr Slumlandlord lives about 300 miles away and the tenants upstairs are on my last nerve, outside partying till about 3:30 am.. that’s uncalled for one day .. I’m gonna let me dog lose on these idiots and i wont feel sorry about doing it.
I applied for a job in Texas today, but i got denied 
oh well..onto bigger and better tings. Been looking to move away for a long time, since last year and finally i hope this year it’ll happen! I’ve been slacking on my homework.. but either I’m just way to tired to do anything, or I’m just really lazy. I need to find some time to get back on it. that is all for tonight it’s almost midnight I’m headed to bed, goodnight!
01 // – > A Fresh Start
Thanks to my best friend he helped me out with this layout. I had to reinstall word press and forgot to backup my theme directory so that’s what i get losing everything, but a fresh start means only good things. So here it is, Vs two.. Living by nobody’s standards, i set my own standards.
I need to find motivation and get back on course with school and blogging, because this is why i built this site to maintain a blogging site and to find others to read also.. so here’s to a fresh start and a new look!